| 051. |
[Sep. 22nd, 2009|04:08 pm] |
i-
i'd really like it if someone would talk to me right now. i don't know how long i'll be able to write. i just really want- please. i don't care what. stories or just that you're there and reading and
i lost my wand and i can't read wards so please don't
i miss you all so much. and i'm sorry and i love all of you and i hope i'll see all of you again soon but if i don't please take care of each other. for me. |
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| 050. |
[Sep. 19th, 2009|03:24 pm] |
[Private to Ed]
I need help. I don't know what to do any more. I can't-
Yaxley says he has my parents and he wants me to meet him tonight at Christchurch which is right by their house and I know it's just so he can make me watch again or attack me or I don't even know what but I can't just sit here and do nothing while he-
I have to try and save them. They're all I have left. I have to go but he'll- He's-
I don't know what to do.
[Private to Frank, Al, Ed, Dig and Sirius (added later)]
Going to Ed's for the night. Back in the morning. |
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| 049. |
[Sep. 17th, 2009|11:23 am] |
[Private to Ed, Sirius, Fabian, Gideon, Greta and Frank]
So today's Frank's birthday and he's having a party at his house tonight and he said I could invite a few people since I'm all under house arrest or whatever. Anyway, I'd like it if all of you could come.
And I know you don't always get along but I swear to god if any of you start fighting with each other or doing anything but eating, drinking and being merry, I will kick your arse. Don't think I won't. |
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| 048. |
[Sep. 15th, 2009|05:32 pm] |
[Private to Frank, Al, Ed, Fabian, Gideon, Dig and Sirius]
Fabian's coming to get me and take me back to his place. We're not doing anything dangerous, I promise. And I'll be back in a couple of hours. |
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| 047. |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|11:12 pm] |
[Private to Dig]
Thanks for the other night. It helped. But I could use another favour?
My friend, Greta Catchlove, I'm supposed to be the maid of honour at her wedding and I haven't really been able to do anything for her because of everything and yeah. But she wants to take me dress shopping for the wedding (Muggle shops only, I promise) and show me her new house next Monday and I was wondering if you might play bodyguard for the day? I know dress shopping's probably not your thing, but she's promised to make you a batch of cupcakes. And she makes really good cupcakes.
[Private to Fabian]
How's the project coming? |
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| 046. |
[Sep. 13th, 2009|03:19 am] |
[Private to Frank, Al, Ed, Dig and Sirius]
Dig's taking me to his place. Giving me drugs. Or something. |
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| 045. |
[Sep. 11th, 2009|07:57 pm] |
I'm very sorry for my last entry and everything I've said about the Lestranges, Mr Yaxley and Mr Macnair. None of it was true. I made it all up because I didn't get along with Yaxley in school and I thought I'd get even by saying he did all those things. They're not Death Eaters. None of them. I don't really think they'd kill or hurt anyone. I just let my imagination get carried away and it was wrong. I'm sorry. I hope you can forgive me.
[Private to Frank]
There's a finger
on the table
sorry I couldn't deal with it
[Private to Ed, Fabian, Gideon, Sirius, Frank, Al and Dig]
help |
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| 044. |
[Sep. 10th, 2009|10:49 am] |
[Private to Frank, Alice, Al, Ed, Dig and Sirius]
Going to get piss drunk at Sirius's this afternoon. He's picking me up here, taking me straight to his flat and will have me home in time for dinner, promise. His parents don't know I'm going but in this case I'm thinking that's probably a good thing. You probably don't want to meet them anyway. There will be no being by myself, going outside, grave robbing or tormenting of Death Eaters. We'll keep our journals on us at all times and won't just shove them under the sofa cushions if one of you makes them make that annoying alarm noise this time.
Love,
Dorcas
All that aside, Regulus Black left me a message saying Yaxley's pretty much out for my blood. Which I could've guessed for myself, but there you have it.
And Frank, can you give me a hand with my portkey? I just realised it still goes to Al's flat and that doesn't seem like such a good thing anymore. |
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| 043. |
[Sep. 9th, 2009|10:00 am] |
So I know a lot of you probably just think of me as that crazy girl with all the conspiracy theories and maybe you're right but
Whatever.
So as much as I thought I wanted one, I never really had that exciting of a life growing up. I went to Hogwarts, made a lot of friends, got in a bit more trouble than most and when I finished school I tried to work at the Ministry for a few months before getting a job at the Magical Menagerie instead. About the most exciting thing that ever happened to me was when I managed to teach a jarvey how to say please. It was 'please fuck off' but still.
Anyway. Anyone who knows me knows I've always done a shite job at holding my tongue and when everything was happening with Millicent Bagnold getting killed and Rodolphus Lestrange weirdly stepping in to be Minister without any actual qualifications, I couldn't keep my mouth shut. If I could, I probably would go back and do things differently now, but it's too late for that. Nothing I do or say at this point is going to stop them from coming after me and someone has to speak up about the shite that's been going on.
Rodolphus Lestrange is a Death Eater.
That's where this all starts, I guess. Lestrange threatened me, back in April, telling me he was going to put me in my place and maybe I should have paid a little more attention to that but I didn't and two days later I had a Death Eater breaking into my flat. Cloak, mask and all. He tried to kill me, he almost did kill Sirius Black but we made it out. My Muggle neighbours who got stuck in the building as it burnt down weren't so lucky.
I didn't know who it was since you know, masks and all, but a couple of days after leaving me homeless and killing my neighbours, he sent me an arm in the post. An actual still-warm severed human arm. And then a month later we moved to brains. God how I wish I was kidding.
And then there was Hogsmeade. I was there, trying to stop the Death Eaters from torching the whole damn place and killing everyone. Which was what they were trying to do. Death Eaters like Bellatrix Lestrange who tried to kill three of my best friends that night. And hey, I know when you go into a fight, there's a good chance you're going to get hurt. I just figured it'd be more like a few broken bones and nasty cuts.
Leoben Yaxley, who I figured out later was the same man who tried to kill me earlier and sent me body parts in the post, cast the cruciatus on me and ripped out my intestines. Not just to leave me for dead. No, that wouldn't have been nearly fucked up enough. He ripped out my intestines so Fenrir Greyback would come and eat me or use me as his own little chew toy. Whatever.
At least Yaxley left me alone for a while after that. Maybe he was too busy helping people like Bellatrix Lestrange kidnap and torture my friends or killing their families or burning down their houses.
And then two weeks ago I got a message from Yaxley in the journals. Telling me he had two of my brothers and I had to choose which one he was going to keep alive. My brothers worked at the Ministry. They supported the Ministry, even after it got taken over by Death Eaters. They never did a damn thing to speak out or stir up any trouble or do anything wrong in their life. They've probably never even been late for work. And I tried to tell that to him but he made me choose and I
I did what he told me. I chose between my brothers and I went where he told me and I went alone and did everything he wanted and he killed Neville in front of me anyway. Yaxley made me watch as he killed him and set his body on fire and told me Edmund was dead too and he was going to kill the rest of my family before he killed me too. But he let me go. And then the next day Walden Macnair sent me my other brother in a box.
A few days later one of my best friends, a man who is as good as a brother to me, was kidnapped and tortured to within an inch of his life by the Minister and his wife. Rodolphus and Bellatrix Lestrange tortured him for days before leaving him for dead.
I
This is what these people do. They kill and they destroy and they ruin people's lives however they can. Leoben Yaxley killed my brothers and has made my life hell for the last five months because I said the Minister was full of shite. That's it. That's all I'd done to start all this. You can think I brought all of this on my self because I didn't keep my mouth shut or whatever but how the hell does a journal entry make it okay for someone to try and kill you? To kill your loved ones in front of you or send you their bodies in a box? Fuck, I went to school with Yaxley for seven years. We had classes together and okay so I never really liked the guy much but I didn't think he could do anything like this. I didn't think he'd turn out to be a murderer either.
[Private to Sirius]
Yeah, I know. I'm just asking them to yell at me again. But I needed to do it.
Are you busy? I could really stand to get out of this house for a while. I need to stop thinking or feeling or something.
[Private to Fabian (added after this)]
I
I need an arm.
And you seemed least likely to question that. |
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| 042. |
[Aug. 31st, 2009|11:37 am] |
[Private to Geoffrey Nott]
i-
i know you have al gumboil. he's a friend but he's never done anything and
what do you want for him?
[Private to Frank]
i warded to nott. asking what he wants for al. i know, but i had to do something.
if i said i'm thinking about offering myself for him that's one of those things you'd get mad about isn't it?
can i have ed and sirius over?
[Private to Sirius]
hi. |
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| 041. |
[Aug. 30th, 2009|01:46 am] |
[Private to Leoben Yaxley, charmed to howl annoyingly until answered]
WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?
[Private to Frank and Pepper (added later)]
nott has al. he's with the fucking death eaters and they must have found out and he was his partner and it's all my fault because i was the one who pushed him into this and he was fucking with their stuff and nott must have found out and now they're going to kill him and
i can't
oh god |
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| 040. |
[Aug. 29th, 2009|07:49 pm] |
[Private to Frank and Pepper]
al was supposed to
he was going to pick me up and dinner and
he's never late
[Private to Rita]
is al with you? |
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| 039. |
[Aug. 24th, 2009|07:22 pm] |
[Private to Al]
i've-
i have to go
if i'm not back
if i'm not back in an hour
start checking barnhouses outside lincoln
i'm sorry i can't explain |
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| 038. |
[Aug. 24th, 2009|10:36 am] |
[Private to Fabian, Gideon, Ed, Sirius and Dig]
Right.
So some of you already know this story but I figure I should probably just tell all of you because I'm scared out it's kind of a mess now. I really don't want the others knowing about all of this, but you guys-
I tried to kill Leoben Yaxley. After Fabian traded Rabbit for him, he let me into the basement and I guess I tortured him for a while but it was more just throwing a couple of spells at him like setting him on fire and I was the one who was with him when he bit off his tongue because I forced veritaserum down his throat and he really just bit it off. And then I cast the killing curse but it didn't work so I just ended up trying to kick the shite out of him for a while.
And I was going to go back and try and poison him or something instead but now he's escaped. And I don't know what to do. Because no one seems to think the hiding on an island is a good plan. But I figure getting your balls set on fire is one of those things you're going to want revenge for.
[Private to Al]
So. Follow up from last week.
What do you do when the Death Eater you tried to kill but couldn't but did set on fire manages to escape? |
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| 037. |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|09:02 am] |
[Private to Al]
Thanks. Sorry for crashing on you last night. I didn't really want to go back to Dig's and-
Do they still send you to Azkaban for casting the killing curse if it doesn't work?
Oh yeah and I quit the capes and tights club. I think.
[Private to Sirius]
Sorry for taking off on you like that. There was something I thought I needed to do. Instead I just remembered how little I want to be here. I'll be back later today. With more tequila. Any other requests from civilization?
[Private to Ed]
I tried to find out who burnt down your house but I couldn't. I'm sorry. Fucking hell I can't stop apologizing either.
[Private to Emmeline]
How about that poison?
[Private to Sirius, Dung, Marlene, Lily and Caradoc (added later)]
Aurors are officially looking into your families, just so you know. Apparently the Ministry is cranky about the whole ignoring their summons thing. Anyway, the word is you guys should sit tight and lay low and all that shite because they're definitely trying to track you down. |
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| 036. |
[Aug. 19th, 2009|12:50 am] |
[Private to Al]
That offer to stay with you still good? Just for a night. Or two. |
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| 035. |
[Aug. 16th, 2009|12:27 am] |
[Private to Order, minus Ed]
Fuck this shite. I'm done.
Island life seems better than dealing with most of you assholes. |
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| 034. |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|09:52 pm] |
[Private to Dig]
Sirius and I are going away for the weekend. Not sure where. Some place warm with oiled cabana boys I think. Anyway, we'll be back Monday. Or sometime around then. Just don't want you to worry. |
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| 033. |
[Aug. 9th, 2009|12:28 am] |
[Private to Order, charmed to be loud and annoying as fuck until read]
Fuck. We've got a big fucking problem.
The Ministry's started investigating us. They've got DMLE looking into Sirius, Dung, Marlene, Lily and Caradoc. And I'm guessing that's just to start. You guys have got to get your arses into hiding and your families into hiding before the Ministry gets to you.
But you can't say anything. |
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| 032. |
[Jul. 27th, 2009|03:55 pm] |
[Private to Self]
So he's back. I should be
I don't know what to think. I want to see him. I think. But James
Well James's fucking obnoxious but that's nothing new.
But there's only so many places he'd be. Maybe tomorrow. Depending on tonight and oh fucking hell I don't want to think about it.
[Private to Gideon and Fabian]
Right, so I know we're all kind of preoccupied with our own problems and shite but I really want to start working on this using myself as human bait plan. We're definitely going to need a better name for it than that. But I'm going to ask Ed for the money to rent a house and get it all furnished since I'm clearly going to bring him into this when he's all better. I don't really know who all to include but if we've really got a leak then I'm kind of wanting to keep it to as few people as possible without getting ourselves killed. But since you two aren't recovering from almost dying/being possessed by the devil, you get to help me sort out the details.
Yeah, that means you need to fucking talk to me already, Fabian. Because you don't want me running off and doing something stupid on my own. Right?
So I'm thinking here's what we need.
1) Rent and furnish house - need money first, working on it.
2) Set wards - I'm pretty sure we can handle that part. If not Dig may be able to help.
3) Let Death Eaters know where I'm living - no fucking idea how to do that. Ideas?
4) Piss Death Eaters off - I've definitely got that part covered.
5) Wait for them to come after me and ambush and kill the fuckers.
So what am I missing?
And Gideon, go apologise to Greta already, would you? I think she'll take you back, just say you were sorry for lying and then you can both stop moping around.
[Private to Ed]
So... if I said I needed about 250 galleons, you'd probably want to know why, huh?
[Private to Dig]
Are you going to be here tonight?
What are you going to do about Remus? For the moon, I mean. |
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